February 27, 2009

love you with the sweetest of devotion

Once in a while I pick up the phone and stalk call someone I’ve never spoken to before. I get kind of nervous and jittery about it, my heart going bonkers while it rings—and I hold my breath. So, of course, when the other party picks up I either sound like a prank caller [...]

February 26, 2009

count to ten, and breathe

It’s Thursday. Yesterday, I had both boys on my own all evening. Normally this goes just fine. I mean, they’re my kids, right? I’m supposed to be naturally and maternally equipped to hand them on my own. My body sustains one of them, the other is fully capable of communicating his wants and needs.

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February 25, 2009

the sun sets gently, goodnight riviera

It’s a little after 5:30 and the sun is starting to give everything a rusty, magic glow. Green is greener. Blue is bluer. And half of Riviera Middle School is in ruins.

I knew about it, of course—racing the sun to get the light, to document the destruction before I forget, before it’s [...]